Consequently, my husband paid the cost beyond a normal person’s imagination. In total, as Gao Zhisheng has lost freedom for 16 years, his family has fallen apart. He has endured appalling tortured too many times. My two underage children and I fled to another country. One of our daughters whom CCP police insulted, and beat has not yet fully healed from the trauma. Our 5-year-old child who has not seen her dad since his disappearance has to look at photos to recall what he looks like, Now, in the era she needs her dad, she experiences the void of her father's love.